Chronicles of a Believer

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I pushed play on my music app.

Glorilla, Cardi B, and Monaleo were amongst the rotation of artists I was listening to because they push the agenda of not needing a man and easily move on to the next. 

I listened to their songs because I wanted to feel empowered so I could get over this breakup. 

While I was motivated momentarily — the beats sounded good and they rapped a few relatable things — I was left feeling empty. 

Listening to their music drew from my spirit instead of pouring into it and left me feeling drained. 

I realized that while those songs sounded pleasing to the ears, I’d have to keep those songs on repeat because my spirit and mind weren’t being nourished. 

Their music also tends to be extremely vulgar.

And no shade towards Cardi, Glo, and Monaleo or the people who listen to them, but it’s definitely not for me, at least not to listen to on a regular. 

I think what solidified that I needed to stop listening to secular rap was when I started going to the gym again. 

I worked out to my usual playlist because of the upbeat tempos. Some of the artists in rotation included Drake, Lil Baby, Glorilla and others. 

I carefully listened to the words, doing my best to be conscious of what they might be saying. 

After finishing my workout, I went home that night and experienced sleep paralysis. Although it only lasted a few minutes, I wasn’t sure why it happened until I was pointed back to what I listened to at the gym. 

All in all, music is extremely powerful and is also a portal to the spirit. 

Our spirits are more sensitive as Christians, so we must be extra cautious about what we consume through music, social media, television shows and movies.

We must ask ourselves, are these influences shaping me to become more like Jesus or the world around me?

Personally, I’m at a point where I desire music that moves and pours into my soul.

I now listen to softer music such as gospel, old-school R&B, and some contemporary R&B. And when I work out, I listen to gospel rap. 

Some of my current favs are: 

Madison Ryann Ward 

• You Love Me So 
• Partial 

Caleb Gordon 

• Love ‘Till It Hurts 
• God Good

Scootie Wop 

• No Weapon 
• Crosswalk 

Marie Dahlstrøm

• Home With You 
• Need You, Pt. 1

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