Being myself is scary.
I am not always certain how people will respond, and I do not want them to think that I am someone I am not.
Being myself would mean giving myself permission to explore, mess up, and not get it right. Being myself means showing up and letting others respond instead of conforming myself based on their responses. Being myself means that I might make others uncomfortable. Being myself is scary because maybe I am not comfortable with myself. Perhaps I always need the opinions of others to let me know if I am doing good and if what I am creating is worthy.
But what I am truly after is knowing if I am safe enough to be vulnerable.
I am reminded that I have a Savior who understands what it is like to be rejected and alone. This truth reassures me that I am not alone.
He calls me to be set apart anyway.
He asks me to become solidified in my identity in Him: a new creation.
He told me who I am and what He placed me on this earth to do.
Freedom.
And with freedom comes creativity because creativity is a vulnerable act.
Creativity requires showing up as myself, fully and authentically. Creativity requires that I unchain myself and express me freely. Creativity requires that I make room because then, and only then, am I giving myself space to grow. Creativity requires that I make mistakes, but I try again and again and again. Creativity requires becoming comfortable with who I am, even if it makes others uncomfortable. Creativity requires that I command rooms rather than allowing rooms to command me.
Creativity says I need not the opinion of others but only the opinion of The Most Creative One.
Freedom.
Praise God, for where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom.
Chronicles of a Believer 
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